God Wink

I was sharing a story with a couple of my friends.  About an experience I had recently when I felt like God was using others to talk to me.  I just love it when this happens.  When I experience God here on earth.  Kairos moments.  Or as my friend Chrissie refers to them:  God winks.  Here's what happened:I had been feeling a little frustrated that I wasn’t able to do more.  It seems most days, I’m staying about one step ahead of my littles.  Taking care of the mundane daily tasks fills most of my time.I was talking to a gal I know that is in a similar life situation as mine.  Three kids.  All about the same age as mine.   She was considering heading back to work.  It involved some travel.  I was so impressed that she could even consider this.  I thought of my situation and I realized how difficult it would be for me to go get a full-time job.  Much less a job that involved some travel.I walked away from the conversation with my head down.  Shoulders slumped.  Wondering what I was missing.  Why was this so difficult for me and for others seems so easy?  I kept telling myself:  don’t compare.  Everyone is different.  Everyone’s situation is different.But it was still hard.  Not that I want to go back to work full-time.  But there are things I want to do.  I’d love to Speak more.  Write more.  Encourage more.Fast forward a couple of weeks and I was at the park with my littles.  I saw two of the gal’s littles there.  But didn’t see her.  I helped one of them onto a swing and pushed him a couple of times.And a little bit later, I spied her stroller with her baby.  And what I assume was her sitter.  I realized:  she got the job!I introduced myself to the sitter.  She was obviously overwhelmed.  And she told the kids five more minutes and they would head home.  The tone of her voice was harsh and cold, so unlike their momma’s.And in that moment, it hit me:  I’m exactly where I need to be.  It’s an honor and a privilege every day to get to be with my kids.  This season won't last forever.  Because I'm living proof that the days are long but the years are short.I turned around and got tears in my eyes.  It was just the God-wink I needed to keep going.  To know for me, I was doing the right thing.**Please note, this isn’t about the most difficult decision that a lot of moms are faced with:  working outside the home or not.  I have been on both sides of this fence and both have their pros and cons.  This is about God showing up in our every days.  Communicating to us.  Giving us what we need to keep going.**