I’m going through a study on Nehemiah.  It’s the third installment of the Living Room Series by my favorite:  Kelly Minter.  Last week, I mentioned sitting in the room with the group of women and realizing that there was an even bigger and better reason that I was there.God has been doing a number on my heart this week.  I feel more convicted than ever in the area of prayer.  Kelly taught that Nehemiah spent a total of four months waiting and praying before God opened the door and gave him an opportunity to ask King Artaxerxes for permission to go back to Jerusaleum and help the people that Nehemiah’s heart was breaking for.And I find myself in a relatable situation to Nehemiah.  My heart breaking.  Wondering what I should do.  And in God’s awesomeness, He brings me Nehemiah to show me the way!  Because let me just tell you that I don’t think I’ve ever prayed diligently for four months.  I’ve waited, yes, but all the while praying?  No.  (Just to be clear, for me, it would look more like waiting all the while trying to figure it all out on my own; not waiting on God and praying fervently.)And I’m reminded of Ecclesiastes 3:11:

“He has made everything beautiful in its time.”

And I’m comforted that just when I’m not sure what to do; God uses Nehemiah, a group of women and Kelly Minter to show me the light.Switching gears a bit, now, there is one other thing that occurred to me this morning as I was sitting listening to Kelly.  I realized how precious it is for us to come to a place of true heart-break for others.  It's God's heart flowing through us when we feel compassion for our neighbors.  And as I started connecting the dots, I realized that in my selfishness and insecurity, I have played a significant role in smoldering this heart-break that my husband has for specific groups of people.  And in my selfishness, I’ve also hurt God, because Jason’s heart-break…is a reflection of God’s heart-break for those same people.  Namely, for Jason; the homeless, victims of sex-trafficking and Africa.So, I called Jason as soon as I could and apologized for the hurtful part I have played.   I’m committed to digging deep and really figuring out what is going on within me that makes it so easy for me to discourage his broken heart.  And beyond that, I’m wondering what I can do to swing the pendulum the other way:  and help him take action in these areas.What does your heart break for (what group of people)?  Have you had an opportunity to help this them?  I would love to hear about it!