Redemptive Living for Women

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Letting Go, Part 2

Letting Go didn’t happen overnight.  It has been a long, slow, arduous process.  It started with a soft call on my heart that there was something more.  It also came with the realization that I had made my career my god.  Looking back, I see that I was gripping tighter and tighter.  I was afraid.  Afraid of giving up control.  And then in September of 2011, I was at a women’s conference and I literally had a vision from God.  In the vision, He was on a white horse.  He came riding up to me and He said:  “Trust me, Follow me, Hold on tight, its going to be a ride.”  And I imagined myself getting up on the horse and holding on tight as we rode away.  After that experience, I couldn’t deny that God was calling me to give up my career and run after His plan for my life.  I’d love to say that all the steps are known to me.  But that hasn’t been the case.  One step at a time.  My friend Jenny told me, sometimes you just have to let go.  And so that is where I am at.  I have let go.  And I am falling.   I know what I have given up, but I don’t know where I will land.  Its not a comfortable place to be. Have you ever felt this way?  Was it uncomfortable for you?